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January 18, 2020

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안녕~~~👋

here my story.....
for today, actually i little bit sad hmm i dont know why, but im srsly sad and dont know how to handle my feeling anymore, ok let me tell one by one, first the reason i feel sad is about my family, i know it my fault i didnt go for driving class, but i already told my mom and my dad im just having 2 weeks for my cuti sem and i want to spent my cuti sem wisely, and my dad keep saying this "bukan buat ape pun kat rumah, tido sampai ke pagi baik belajar kereta je". You know what i feel? im stressed! hellllloooo, im staying home and doing "HOMEWORK" and my dad saying like that? please respect me as daughter, i also have feeling. im doing a lot of thing kot! basuh pinggan, basuh baju, feeding my cats, kemas bilik, cuci taik kucing, meanwhile my dad never do that but claimed himself that all those thing made by him. And about several mins tadi, he said that dia tak tau kene buang sampah and told my mom that "dorang ada dari petang tadi takkan tak buat?" oh stop it im too tired sampai bila using my name and claimed everything wrong because of me?

my sec thing is about my brother, ok i know he really tired because of his training, but please dont ask me about driving class!! i know it is important for me but please give me more time! i really want some rest, did they know i really stress when i in campus? then give me a lot of work when im home? please think about me too, im getting tired with all of this!

and sometimes i think i really need to be alone, but i hate to be alone, I'm tired to alone, in campus i always be alone without friends i know im quite interesting in rumours or so on but i need friends, i know they alive but they did not pay attention on me, i always outing by myself and yeah alone again, i try ajak my friends outing with me because i feel too alone nut they give me sejuta and beribu berbillion bermillion alasan to me, and please just say "AKU TAKNAK" kan senang daripada give me a lot of alasan merapu and tak masuk akal, I hate them! When they need some helps I coming with a lot of pertolongan yang I can give them, but when I just need someone to pujuk me and stay with hmm no one around me! I hate that situation. I never told my parents if i have probs because I'm too shy and i don't believe my parents can solve it, even I have some problems with my friends when I'm form 2 my dad just say "alah biasa la tu perempuan" and you know what my friends did not tegur me almost one week. Itu yang biasa sangat tu and sampai sekarang pun still being like strangers gituuw😔.

I'm just tired and I don't who will listen to all my story, I never think to tell anyone because it is really hard, i even don't know how to start telling them if I don't have proper friends as well. I'm just think I'm toooooo tired.

oh because I'm tell about the sad story so I will recommend you some sad songs that I really love heard when I really down

1. Go Together by (Jibeom, Jaehyun and Bomin of Golden Child)